I’ve been wearing make-up as good as every single day since I was about 14 years old. I never really thought anything of it, but isn’t it crazy how when we start wearing make-up, we can’t really go back anymore? At least, I couldn’t.
I haven’t gone to a single college class without make-up. I even put on make-up when I would go to the grocery store at 11 pm to grab some late night snacks. Just because I might run into someone who knows me. Who has never seen me without make-up. Imagine what they would think. How they would react. Now that I think about it, that’s actually insane.
I never felt like I was hiding behind my make-up. I always told myself that I use make-up because I like it, because it’s a way to express yourself and because I love trying out new make-up products. All those things are true, but it’s not the whole truth. I also stopped feeling beautiful without it. And I wanted to change that. I wanted to feel beautiful in my own, natural skin again.
So last week I woke up, got ready for work and skipped the make-up routine. I did use skincare and the By Terry CC serum. When I was about to leave the house, I asked my boyfriend if he noticed anything different about me. His response? “No I don’t, should I?” Before I asked the question, I was nervous. I thought he might think I’m crazy for going to work like this. But he didn’t even notice!
I asked my boyfriend if he noticed anything different about me. His response? ‘Should I?’
When I got home that day he said: “You know what? I really like that you didn’t wear make-up today. You look cute like this.” I was shocked. Did he just say this to make me feel good? But the following days he kept looking at me, smiling, because he loved that I was doing this.
At work, nobody seemed to notice or care. Maybe they did, but nobody said anything or looked at me differently. That’s when I realized. People don’t care. Everybody is insecure about themselves, worrying about themselves and their own appearance. Nobody cares whether or not I woke up 15 minutes early to do a winged eyeliner or not. Something clicked for me.
However, I didn’t stop wearing make-up entirely. When I went out with friends last week, I did put on an entire face of make-up. But it was intentional, because I wanted to and felt like it. Not because I felt like I had to. Not because I wanted to hide. I still love trying out new make-up and I do think it’s an important way for me to be creative, but I let go of the pressure that comes with it. And I can tell you, that feels so good.
Just be yourself, you don’t have to hide,